this past week, the realization that tomorrow is not guaranteed has really hit home.
this is why i am writing this. if anything ever happens to me... i want you to all know that
everything will be okay.
sooner or later, i would have ended up here. i'm just glad i got to experience life with the people i care about. you don’t have to worry about me. i’m at peace—no more worries, no more stress.
there's no need to stress over the little things that come with losing a loved one. i don't have a preference between cremation or burial. the only thing that matters to me is that the people i care about are there—family, friends, everyone. the people are what’s important, not anything else. i couldn’t care less about how expensive my funeral is or what’s done for me. i just want everyone to come together, set aside their differences, and be united.
also, don’t be hard on yourself. if we had disagreements or arguments, it doesn’t matter to me. people disagree all the time. it’s not that deep. if there’s anything unresolved, don’t stress over it. i’m not the type to hold grudges, and i don’t blame you for anything. be happy and keep living your life. the last thing i’d ever want is to be a burden to anyone.
don't be sad. be happy.
life has treated me well. i want you all to be happy about the memories we made together, the moments we shared, and hopefully, the joy i brought you. i don’t want anyone to be sad over me. i want you to celebrate my life and be grateful that we got to experience parts of our lives together. i’m thankful you were a part of my story.
i have begun to realize that money, fame, fortune, lust etc.. are all distractions from what really matter.
the people in your life
the people who care about you, the ones you made memories with, and those who positively impacted your life—no matter how small—are the ones who truly matter.
i appreciate everyone who has come and gone in my life. each person, whether i met them once or saw them every day, has shaped who i am. even if you pushed me down or negatively affected me in the moment, you made me stronger in the end. for that, i am just as thankful for you as i am for those who lifted me up.
sum requests
when i die, please don’t look through my phone unless it’s absolutely necessary (ex: i was murdered) . i have private conversations with people that should stay between me and them. those messages hold special moments and memories for me, and i want that to be respected. my family can keep my physical phone for the memories, but please don't look through it.
also, i would love for this blog to stay up. if there's any way of keeping this website and domain, please do so. my blog embodies who i am as a person... my thoughts, hobbies, and memories all lie here. my blog also shows my growth as a person. you can see what i was thinking in different parts of my life.
i would love to have the people who made the biggest impact in my life give a speech for me. that includes, but is not limited to: nathan, john, brandon, brian, alan, ryan, jo, my parents, and my sister.
i am only grateful to have had this opportunity to live.
it is a blessing to be on this earth. i am glad to have experienced life. i am glad to say that i made the most out of every moment.
i want to say goodbye
keep living your life. don't let this put you down. i want to see you all succeed and live your lives to the fullest.
i would still like to be remembered. with good thoughts. a celebration of the moments we had together. that would be awesome. :)
and with that being said, i would like to say goodbye. i love you all.
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