my favorite songs
here, you can explore my favorite songs from each month!
astronomy
by conan gray
this song is dedicated to my friend, darien. he loved conan gray. this song encapsulates how i feel about my relationship with him. yes, this is more of a sad, love song, but i will pick and choose parts of the song that me and him could relate to.
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"cause socially speaking, we were the same" represents how much we vibed with each other. we were very similar with our senses of humor, quirkiness, and realness. we said what was on our minds, even if it meant crashing out in front of people. we didn't care about people thought about us.
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​"a tale old as time, young love don't last for life". this lyric really hits. i didn't think he would go. i didn't know this wouldn't last for life. i thought we would achieve our dreams and grow old, looking back at the memories of when we were young. i didn't think our experiences together at this young of an age would come to an end like that. especially in the way that it did.
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"and now I know, now I know. it's time to go, it's time to go". this lyric, to me, means that i need to accept that he is no longer on this earth with us. i know i have to, but it feels weird. it feels wrong.
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"we've traveled the seas, we've ridden the stars". we've had some incredible moments together. i miss driving to san diego with you, taking you alcohol shopping, and having one-on-one talks with you.
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​"it's astronomy, we're two worlds apart". i like to believe that you are somewhere and that you're just in another world. i hope you are doing well there. i hope you're happy. although we are two world's apart, i will always remember you. you are in my heart. you are in my memories.
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this song makes me feel closer to darien. it represents my relationship with darien. we shared some incredible memories with each other, but now, we are unable to make new ones together. we are apart and i need to accept it. but this doesn't mean that i will forget him. he will be with me for life. we are forever connected. i love you darien. you will always be the little brother i never had.
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march 2025
february 2025
on the ground
by rosé
this song really hits home because it captures the feeling of achieving your lifelong dream—whether it’s landing your dream job or reaching the pinnacle of success—only to realize it doesn’t bring the fulfillment you expected. it’s about the realization that people, not status or wealth, are what truly matter. no matter how much money you make or how high you climb in your career, success can become a trap, pulling you into a relentless cycle of work and ambition. but eventually, it clicks—the real source of happiness isn’t fame or fortune; it’s the people you love.
last good bye
by sunkis
usually, my first impression of a song is all about the vibe. i don’t really pay attention to the lyrics at first, tbh. this song is one of those cases — the vibe is so chill and laid-back. it’s the kind of track that feels perfect for zoning out or just driving around at night.
but after a few more listens, man… it hit me how sad it actually is. it’s about a guy who unexpectedly runs into his ex after a long time. they broke up because she moved far away, and now that he’s seeing her again, he feels that familiar pull to rekindle what they had — even if it’s just for one more night.
but deep down, he knows it wouldn’t be the same. the person he once loved isn’t the same anymore. that version of her is gone, and he realizes that asking her to hang out one last time would be a horrible idea. so, even though he desperately wants to say his "last goodbye, one last time", he chooses to hold it all in and walk away instead of begging for something that’s no longer possible.
it’s such a sad concept — seeing someone you once loved so deeply, only to realize they’ve become a completely different person. it’s like the person you knew is gone. dead, in a way. those moments you shared? they’re never coming back. things change so fast, and sometimes love really is temporary. it’s heartbreaking, but it’s true.
this song captures that feeling perfectly — the sadness of realizing you can’t relive the past, no matter how much you want to.
january 2025
december 2024
shelter
by porter robinson
i absolutely love this song. i can completely relate to it. i interpret it as being about someone who is grateful for those who cared for them. life comes full circle, and now they're caring for others. throughout my life, i've had people i looked up to—mentors and role models—who guided me and taught me right from wrong. i've taken what i learned from them and branched off on my own journey. now, at 21, i'm the one giving back, guiding those who were just like me. i'm forever grateful for those who came before me and will never forget their impact on my life.
november 2024
somebody else
by the 1975
i can’t stop replaying this song!! it’s a beautiful piece of art with simple yet powerful lyrics. i interpret it as capturing the obsessive thought of someone you love being with someone else—an idea that won’t leave your head and slowly drives you crazy. in response, you try to focus on money or external success, but the pain still lingers underneath. outwardly, it may show up as anger or a stern insistence that everything is fine, yet deep down it hurts deeply, fueled by your denial of your true feelings and the haunting image of them moving on.
october 2024
we can't be friends (wait for your love)
by ariana grande
this album is based on the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, which explores the idea of removing a loved one from one's memory to ease the pain. i interpret the lyrics as a girl who can not move on from a past relationship. she is trying her best, but her emotions clash with logic, causing her to think of fictional scenarios in her head. this creates chaos and does not allow her to fully move on. loving someone she can't have and imagining endless scenarios drives her crazy.
perhaps erasing all memory of that person is the only way to heal. personally, i would not be against it. what do you think?